Don’t get me wrong, I love Rutgers and I like the classes that I’ve taken thus far, especially the ones I’m taking this semester, but something about online classes makes me feel a lot more comfortable than being in a classroom. It’s weird, maybe it’s because I’m a pretty shy person but I always do so much better through online classes than in person classes. I apply myself the same way I do in normal classes, I do everything I’m supposed to but it’s almost like it’s easier to express myself through online classes than it is in classrooms. This makes me worried in a way, it’s almost like I’m so attached to the internet that it’s easier for me to interact and express myself through it, and it shouldn’t be this way…haha
I think what makes online classes so appealing to me is that I don’t have the face to face pressure that sometimes happens in classrooms, like when you say something wrong and everyone looks at you like “what is this person saying.” I feel like in college we don’t meet enough in person for me to become comfortable enough to say whatever I want in a classroom, for example how comfortable I used to feel in middle, and high school. Being in a classroom everyday with your teacher and classmates (in high school) and knowing everyone made it way easier to be able to say what I wanted, rather than in college where you meet once or twice a week for a couple of weeks and you’re usually so busy listening to lectures that you don’t really have time to “meet” the people in your class. Then there’s the presentations, I can’t do public speaking… I’m horrible at it, I get so nervous every time that I almost forget what I have to say. So online classes makes it so much easier for a shy person like myself.